I Am Not Okay

I promised you I would be okay. How do I keep that promise when my life has been shattered into a million pieces?

I thought I knew grief. I take that back. I knew grief, but nothing like this. Losing your person is grief on a whole new level. You not only lose the person you love with all your heart: your best friend, lover, soul mate, confidant, and partner in crime. You lose your life as you know it.

Bedtime is a whole new ritual. The bed is so empty and lonely. Tears are plentiful and every night is restless. Waking up all night long, to realize once again, it’s real, he…