I Am Not Okay

I promised you I would be okay. How do I keep that promise when my life has been shattered into a million pieces?

I thought I knew grief. I take that back. I knew grief, but nothing like this. Losing your person is grief on a whole new level. You not only lose the person you love with all your heart: your best friend, lover, soul mate, confidant, and partner in crime. You lose your life as you know it.

Bedtime is a whole new ritual. The bed is so empty and lonely. Tears are plentiful and every night is restless. Waking up all night long, to realize once again, it’s real, he…

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I started writing about 2 years ago to cope with my struggles in life. I write about grief, caregiving, substance use disorder, and the death care industry.

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Jennifer Estes

Jennifer Estes

I started writing about 2 years ago to cope with my struggles in life. I write about grief, caregiving, substance use disorder, and the death care industry.

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