Tom, Are You Listening?

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I don't know if I can do this. The pain is unbearable. I wake up thinking of you. I whisper your name. I go to bed thinking of you. I tell you goodnight.

Since there are 1,440 minutes in a 24-hour day, I know I think of you at least 800 times a day. I speak to you. Most days, I feel you here with me. I ask for signs from you, and I receive them, gratefully, with tears.

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I started writing about 2 years ago to cope with my struggles in life. I write about grief, caregiving, substance use disorder, and the death care industry.

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Jennifer Estes

Jennifer Estes

I started writing about 2 years ago to cope with my struggles in life. I write about grief, caregiving, substance use disorder, and the death care industry.

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